Friday, December 4, 2009

Time Flies

I left America 10 months ago! Thanksgiving has come and gone and my family will be arriving in exactly 2 weeks for what is sure to be the vacation of a lifetime. I can't believe it is almost Christmas and I can't wait.

Thanksgiving in Bangkok was what Thanksgiving is supposed to be about: family and over indulging. Though my family was not here, my fellow Peace Corps Volunteers were, and they are like family. And no I did not over indulge on turkey and potatoes, but any foreign food I could get my hands on, an obscene amount of wine, and dancing! Just the way I like it...

I'm back at site for two weeks of busy planning. We are trying to get the recycling bank off the ground before I leave and my youth development camp will now have 200 students attending. The weather is pleasant but still a tad hot. I am back on my bike and almost walking like a normal person again (though I'm afraid my dance moves may never be the same). This weekend marks a huge Thai holiday, Father's day, also the King's birthday. I'm sure there will be much activity.

I'm feeling pretty good and can't wait for the next few months and to see what my next year in Thailand will bring.

As always, thanks for reading.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Roll on, Roll on

Any of you that read this blog or notice my status updates on facebook know that this experience is somewhat of an emotional roller coaster for me. The ups and downs come quickly, in one day I can be practically elated and then by the end of the afternoon I feel like screaming or punching something, or closing my curtains and locking my door. We all know I'm a little crazy, hell you have to be to sign up for this in the first place, but I think I am correct in saying that this is ride that volunteers all over the world experience.

Many things can dictate my mood. The weather, if I am stuck wearing worn out clothes for day, a conversation at lunch, if the pig shit at my house is particularly smelly, etc. Sunday my facebook status read "Sarah brooks just had the best day of making organic fertilizer, reading a murder mystery, meeting my extended Thai family, and eating birthday cake". Yesterday it read, "Sarah Brooks is pissed and discouraged, good thing there is a long weekend coming up" and today "Sarah Brooks is looking forward to good food, good drinks, and good friends. Happy Thanksgiving". If that's not a roller coaster I don't know what is!

Yesterday I learned that my office no longer wants to support my HIV/AIDS income generating project. I'm not entirely sure that I understood the whole conversation because frankly I stopped listening. I was just so fed up. After putting on my headphones and sunglasses I stuck out the rest of the day in the office without talking much. Today, I was able to ride my bike in at ten am in beautiful weather thinking about how much I am looking forward my upcoming trip to Bangkok and thinking how thankful I am for the other volunteers. My friends and family from home are a great support system, but sometimes it's hard to explain what I am feeling or going through, and usually its pretty silly. The other volunteers get it and for that I am thankful. I am thankful and lucky to have two support systems.

My other projects are going well. The HIV/AIDS projects is not completely off the table. I can pick up the pieces and make something out of it. I'm sure of it. Or I'm sure gonna try.

So that's what's going on and it calls for much reflection. I am lucky that I have a job and lifestyle that allows for hours in a hammock with my Ipod or curling up with a book. Thanks for reading and commenting and listening.

Happy Thanksgiving! I will be celebrating with the other volunteers that have become like family at the fine establishment known as The Sizzler, Bangkok.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Something Fun

Today I had a planning session with youth group about the camp we are putting on next month. We are having a session on careers and will be bringing in different people from the community to talk about their careers and how they got started. When I suggested we invite the mayor, the girls said no thanks and asked for Barack Obama.....truly made my day!

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Beaches, Bandages, and Birthdays

Wow, has it really been a month since I last posted? Sorry, to my readers, that is, if I have any left! As you all probably noticed in my last few entries I was extremely excited for my October Beach vacation. I headed down south with some of my favorite volunteers expecting to have the time of my life. You should have seen me on the airplane, I mean I was REALLY excited....and then and few hours after arrival I took a nasty spill and ended up in an ambulance with a dislocated kneecap. I haven't endured that many injuries, just some broken bones and skinned knees, etc. but this was definitely the worst of all. It HURT. My knee swelled to the size of a football and after three days in the hospital the doctor finally performed a procedure to get rid of the nasty fluid (GROSS) and the pain was finally bearable. That day I tackled the beach, on crutches, and got some sweet tan lines with the intense brace my knee was in. The knee cap is slowly falling back into place (they couldn't pop it back in) and I was able to go ahead with my vacation, sort of. Now is the time to thank my wonderful friends, because they had to do everything for me, short of escorting me to the bathroom. I couldn't carry my bags, purse, get in taxis (very well), nothing...and they were great!! They seriously helped every step of the way, all the while feeling sufficiently sorry for me. I don't think they even got made when I was so slow getting off a ferry that we missed a bus! And of course, we were able to squeeze in a couple of good times. I did see the beach, go swimming, and soak up as much sun as I could, but about every other day I would have to stay in the hotel for fear of pushing my knee too hard. 
I don't want to be dramatic and say that the vacation was ruined, but I am certainly glad I have another one coming up in December when my parents and brother come for a visit. I should be totally healed by then. They days after vacation were spent in Bangkok, seeing doctors and resting before a big Peace Corps weekend. 
We had our quarterly VAC meeting where selected members of Peace Corps address any issues volunteers may be having with staff. The next day we had the treat of a meeting with the new Peace Corps Director Aaron Williams and a nice lunch with the returned Peace Corps community that now lives in Thailand. This was a real treat and I was honored to represent my group. I also managed to celebrate Halloween somewhere along the way. 

My return to site came at the perfect time. My knee hurt, I was tired and I missed my community. And I guess they missed me. A few hours after I got home, the youth group and Pi Jam came to get me to celebrate Loy Gratong, a Thai holiday that celebrates water under the full moon, in which we send all our bad luck away. I hope it worked.

Then on Friday, Pi Jam's school pulled out all the stops for my birthday. Yes, that right's I'm one year older and turning 23 in Thailand was truly special. The celebration consisted of a food fair in which each grade made a special Thai snack. The food was delicious, the decorations amazing, and each student made me a homemade birthday card. I actually received over 100 birthday cards. It was wonderful. Then, on Saturday, my actual birthday, I hopped/hobbled on a bus to Kohn Kaen, about six hours away to celebrate with other volunteers and birthday buddy/fellow Rhodes graduate Beau. We had a joint party that included bowling (I watched), dinner and a happy hour (3 actually) of all you can drink beer. Again my fellow PCVs are proving to be amazing friends and surprised us with a legit chocolate cake. 

I returned home to mixed emotions. I am angry and tired of my knee injury. My medicine makes me drowsy, I walk with a crazy limp and can't ride my bike. Being sick or injured is certainly one of the hard parts of being a volunteer, at least for me. 

Monday, I tried to pump myself up for a productive day and was met with confusing phone calls about arranging rides and meetings. Just as I resigned myself to staying at home for the day, two of my co-workers picked me up and took me to the meeting that I thought was not happening. This was a meeting with the hospital and the leaders of the HIV/AIDs income generation group that I am working with. As there are 51 PHAs (people having AIDS) in my area I am trying really hard to help their group get on their feet. In some amazing act of something, my counterparts, the nurse and the group members had been surprisingly motivated in my absence and written a project plan with a budget and that very day we set out to present and search for support from the local government offices in the community. We visited all 5 of the offices and were able to get pledges of support and money from each. This was one of the best days of my service yet. We still have a long way to go to make this group successful, but we are on the way. And best of all, my counterparts took responsibility and did things for themselves. It is PCV's dream come true. Let's hope things keep going the way they are!

Friday, October 9, 2009

Developments in Development

Though, I have been complaining of boredom today, looking back on my week I realize that I was quite busy and was indeed productive. Last Sunday, I traveled about 5 hours away to help at a friend's English camp with 3 other volunteers. The weather was amazingly cool and fresh feeling and I loved visiting another province, and though it was right next to mine, I still could see and feel differences. My friend has a great, shiny, clean, new feeling house and we enjoyed food from his neighbor's, watching the moon rise from his porch, and cold beers. The next day we donned our bright orange polos (the school provided shirts for us) and headed up the hill to conduct the English camp, "What About You?". The camp was for about 200 high school students, most of whom had surprisingly good attitudes and pretty good English skills. It shows that my friend is really doing a great job there. I led a session with a Thai teacher about daily activities and the students loved our games. This English camp was a definite success and perhaps the smoothest running one I have ever seen! It felt so good to be apart of something successful and gave my morale the boost that it needed. 

We caught the 6 am bus back to Ubon and Heidi and I decided to hang out in Ubon for the day, since her bus didn't leave until 2. We walked around, looked at clothes and jewelry we couldn't afford, chilled in a coffee shop and ate a lot of snacks. By the time I got home I was exhausted. 

Pi Jam (a teacher and friend) had asked me to come to her school on Wednesday to lead a session, just for fun, as the students are in the last week of school before break. I planned some games and brought supplies thinking the students would want to be silly and just have some fun, not really learn English. When I arrived at the school I was surprised to find out that the hospital was conducting a project design training with the students and adults from two particular villages. It was just the sort of work that I hope for in my community and here it was happening all on it's own. I was thrilled. 

I sat back with Pi Jam, my counterpart from the office and a woman from the district office. Since Pi Jam speaks English I took this time to have an impromptu meeting to discuss all my project ideas with my counterpart and the district officer. They listened and were quite supportive. This bodes well for the next couple of months. We were also able to set a date for a large youth camp and for implementing bio-gas at the school. Exciting stuff!!! No really, I am not being sarcastic, community development is hard and thrilling work all at the same time. Perhaps I have found my calling!

After lunch I led my session and luckily the adults were willing to be just silly as the children had been. It lasted for about an hour and I ran the whole thing, in THAI!! It was a great feeling. 
After that I sat in with some of the groups and helped them develop their project ideas, all based about health in the villages. 

Thursday and Friday were spent in the office and I was able to get some work and research done. I also had enough time to surf the internet until I was unbearably bored. This afternoon at two 0'clock my counterpart asked me to join her as she had paperwork to give to the headmen of all 20 of our villages. I jumped at the chance to get out of the office and we headed out. During the next 3 hours I saw a lot. I even saw some parts of our Tambon (district) that I had never seen before. I danced with some Thai people who were partying for no apparent reason, donating small change to a wat, saw the biggest spider I have ever seen, harvested rice for five minutes on the side of the road, tried some homemade Thai snacks, learned some new Lao, and got invited to a cockfight! It was a fun afternoon and a great change of pace from the previous day. 

Also, last night I attended my first Thai funeral. The woman that represents my villages at the sub-district level died suddenly of heart failure. Thai funerals last for 3 days in which the family of the deceased is never left alone, day or night. This entails a lot of eating and drinking as well. The third and final night the largest number of people visit the home along with monks who are there to chant in a service of sorts. The apparel is black on the bottom, with white on top. My family and I went for the third night and though I did not fully understand I chanted and prayed along with the rest of the mourners. Come to think of it, no one really seemed to be mourning. It is the Buddhist nature to accept death as it comes. After the funeral my parents and I enjoyed Korean style barbeque with the former head of my office (who now works with another volunteer in another Tambon) and her husband who is the head of the next Tambon over. Though the dinner lasted for 3 hours, we all had a great time and some great conversation. It was nice to be out with my host parents since they usually prefer to stay at home. 

Now we have come to another quiet Friday night in the village. I am counting down the days until next Friday when I leave for my beach vacation. Hopefully next week will surprise me as this one did. 

Tomorrow morning I am headed out with friends from work to watch the boat races in Ubon. Expect a full report. 

Good night, 
Sarah

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Secrets Revealed...

Ok, are you ready??? I have found a cure-all, any sickness, hangover, homesickness, feelings of melancholy, anything, I swear!! Here is the recipe:

1. Stevie Nicks
2. a long shower
3. pink pjs that your mom sends from home
4. blueberry tea
5. clean sheets
6. a couple of episodes of Seinfeld

try it, I feel GREAT!!

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Thoughts

Blogging is difficult. It is hard to think of my experiences with the freshness of a traveler because nothing seems to surprise me now. I guess that's because I really live here now. Yes, I left America eight months ago. It's hard to believe but when I think about home and what I was doing this time last year I can really see some of the changes in myself. Though life abroad and life in the Peace Corps is hard, I wouldn't trade this opportunity for anything in the world. 
Believe me, I don't feel like this everyday. The days when I am sick, when I can't find the Thai to get my point across, when the office tells me they have no budget for my projects, when I have to ride my bike in the rain, or when all I can smell is pig shit and burning trash are HARD. But there are plenty of good moments that make up for those, and for all those HARD moments, they build character right??
I am so lucky to have been placed in Thailand. I am lucky for the wonderful people in my community. I am lucky some of those people are motivated to do projects with me. I am lucky that my some of my fellow volunteers have become my best friends and my family. I am lucky that I have family (2 Thai families and 1 american family that is coming to visit in December). 

Here's what's been going on lately:
1. I study Thai twice a week with Pi Mod, an awesome teacher and friend. And I can read on like a 2nd grade level!
2. I took two women living with AIDS to a Peace Corps sponsored conference on business skills in Bangkok for a week. We will now have weekly meetings to strengthen the group in our community and hopefully begin an income generation project. 
3. I laughed as hard and as much as I ever have last weekend in Bangkok. 
4. I went to Outback Steakhouse for the second time in my life and had the time of my life!
5. I have watched 3 seasons of LOST in one month (that show is addicting!!)
6 I have read over 3,000 pages. 
7. I have spent way too much time on the internet. 
8. I have project ideas flowing, just not funds. 
9. I am counting down to a beach vacation in three weeks!!!

Though I am not homesick, not that I would admit it if I was, I do miss hearing from friends and family. Emails are wonderful and if you have the time real mail or packages would be wonderful x10!! My mailing address is posted at the side of this blog. 

Peace to all, 
Sarah